Compared to the upwards trend of the past few years, 2014 was a bit rougher on me in terms of personal development. It certainly did feel like a rocky road all the way. If anything, the theme of the year would be ‘just keep swimming (or you’ll drown)’. So, the year of staying afloat it is.
Work was not a smooth sailing boat this year – way too many things happened that were out of my control and it led to a very stressful period of time where nothing seemed to be right. From the start of the year right up to year-end it was just one incident after another and there were numerous times when I was sorely tempted to just give up. And I did, in a way. Something had to give under the enormous pressures and that was mostly my inner self and personal life.
And yes, after nearly 4 years, I’m still nowhere closer to being permanently settled here. There is a certain routine and comfort derived from that routine, but I’m still hesitant to totally commit to being here in Singapore. Somehow, even though it seems like the practical choice to make, I don’t have that ‘feel’. This still seems like a transitionary phase for me – whatever it is, I know deep down inside of me that this is not where I’ll end up eventually. Call it intuition, call it a feeling of fate or whatever you may, but my instinct has not led me wrong before.
I certainly did slack off in quite a number of areas this year – things that I’m not proud of but at the time seemed like the only option. I let go of a lot of things that I just couldn’t find the energy to do or care about including my health, control on finances and relationships. Time to get back in the saddle next year! (That’s what I say every year, so we’ll see…) On a plus point, I’m hoping to end the year on a high note for my health (skin-wise) and I didn’t fall sick with any flu germs this year *fingers crossed*.
Lots of shows and outings in 2014 but even then I think I did cut back slightly when compared to 2013’s bumper list:
- January – Notre Dame de Paris, Flying Bach
- February – My Fair Lady, Ice Art, Dinosaurs – Dawn to Extinction
- March – Singapore Dance Theatre’s Romeo and Juliet
- April – Grease
- June – Lord of the Rings The Two Towers with the Metropolitan Orchestra
- July – Whose Line Is It Anyway, Jurong Bird Park, Nanta Cookin’
- August – The Sound of Music, Rock of Ages, Cavalia
- October – Matthew Bourne’s Swan Lake, Priscilla – Queen of the Desert, Stuttgart Ballet’s Onegin
- November – Mamma Mia!
- December – Singapore Dance Theatre’s Don Quixote
Travel made me very happy in 2014 though, starting with my memorable birthday solo trip to Korea in January. It was something that I felt strongly I just had to do and I’m glad I did. I returned to Korea again in May with my parents for our longest yet family holiday for 11 days! I managed to visit Hong Kong twice for work, and one trip to Jakarta. The parents came down to Singapore for their annual visit and they’ll be coming again in January. And finally, I’m rounding off the year in Bangkok – it’s the first time we’ll be celebrating the New Year overseas.
Seems like there’s nothing much to write about 2014 even though it felt at times like I was being put through the wringer at work. I looked back at my previous posts and it really feels like the person who wrote those posts is someone else, not me. Have I really changed that much in just 4 short years?